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Apologies, snakes and positivism.

29 Jun

There has been a lot going on in my life lately. Those that are nearest and dearest to me know that. Those that aren’t probably pick up on the vibes at the very least. I’m currently in the process of rearranging a lot and for the better. Out with old. In with the new. 

I went on a little cruise today with Sherlock and Lucy which is always what I do when I need to get answers to questions that are bothering me or I just need reflection. I’ve been making a lot of positive changes in my life lately and that means cutting some people out of my life and that makes me extremely sad. On that same token it also means that I can repair some old relationships, mend current ones and start new ones and that’s also exciting!  When I was sitting at a red light and I turned up the AC for the puppy dogs… (It’s a pretty hot day and living on the coast we don’t have AC so I figured a drive would also be a good way to cool them off…) I was suddenly given an image of a baby python snake in my mind. It was curled around itself. It was adorable, majestic, beautiful! It represented many things to me. It represented to me the cycle of life. It showed me how even though something so adorable, majestic, beautiful and HARMLESS and NEEDED for the eco system would later grow up and eventually smother smaller animals or even bigger animals if given the opportunity simply to eat, simply because it could. Don’t take this as a negative statement. I’m vegan. I love all animals. I’m in awe of snakes. It’s just a fact of life. They need to eat. A snake is a snake.

That is where the phrase comes from, “A snake is a snake. Don’t trust a snake.” There are a lot of snakes out there around us. It makes me wonder. If I were to choose what animal spirit I would be, what would I pick? I’d like to think that I’m a phoenix or an owl. For some strange reason, I always go back to some sort of bird even though I’m deathly afraid of flying other than in my dreams but I digress.

My point is this. I’ve dealt with far too many snakes in my twenty five years of living. I’m tired of the negativity and most importantly, the drama. I understand that everyone is going to have problems. I definitely have my fair share but if you create un-needed and unnecessary drama and do things to purposely hurt me or those I care about you have no place in my life. I don’t mean to be cruel. It’s just the cycle of life. I want the phoenixes, the owls, the wolves, the felines (of ALL types!!). Life is harsh. Life is also beautiful. It’s a GIFT that I’m not going to waste. I want to share this journey with people that want to surround themselves with nothing but positive energy, LOVE, OH MY GOD SO MUCH LOVE and most of all peace. I’m not saying that it’s going to be easy or by any means perfect. There are going to be fuck ups, there are going to be tears and sadness along the way but it’s the journey and the EFFORT that makes it worth it and will cause me to stick it out with you and hopefully will make you want to stick it out with me.

In closing, contact with these snakes has made me very fearful the last 2-3 months and I’ve been a bit stand-offish and in some cases I’ve probably come across very wrong and maybe given you the wrong impression, like I don’t want to be your friend, like I don’t love you, like I don’t want to spend time with you or hang. That is FURTHER FROM THE TRUTH. This is my official apology. My true friends out there, you know this apology is for you. The fake friends out there that are reading this? You’re feeling a bit of uneasiness in your gut and that’s okay. I don’t hate you. I love you. Consider this your wake up call. Get your shit together and come home. I love you. I hope my true friends out there can forgive me. This apology comes deep from the heart. Text me. Call me. Get together with me. I’ll say it to your face if you need it. Remember: love is all you need. ❤ I look forward to this new chapter and journey we take together. 

After all, we are all one stream of consciousness linked together so whether we decide to take this journey together or not, we never fully separate from one another. I am you, you are me. I honor the you in me, and I hope you honor the me in you. Namaste. ❤